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me," I echoed, dashing at my opportunity. "If you are not merely a chattel and a decoy, if there is any womanhood, any self-respect in you, you will keep faith with me." "Anita!" cried Mrs. Ellersly. "Go to your room!" I had, once or twice before, heard a tone as repulsive--a female dive-keeper hectoring her wretched white slaves. I looked at Anita. I expected to see her erect, defiant. Instead, she was again wearing that cowed look. "Don't judge me too harshly," she said pleadingly to me. "I know what is right and decent--God planted that too deep in me for them to be able to uproot it. But--oh, they have broken my will! They have broken my will! They have made me a coward, a thing!" And she hid her face in her hands and sobbed. Mrs. Ellersly was about to speak. I could not offer better proof of my own strength of will than the fact that I, with a look and a gesture, put her down. Then I said to the girl: "You must choose now! Woman or thing--which shall it be? If it is woman, then you have me behind you and in front of you and around you. If it is thing--God have mercy on you! Your self-respect, your pride are gone--for ever. You will be like the carpet under his feet to the man whose creature you become." She came and stood by me, with her back to them. "If you will take me with you now," she said, "I will go. If I delay, I am lost. I shall not have the courage. And I am sick, sick to death of this life here, of this hideous wait for the highest bidder." Her voice gained strength and her manner courage as she spoke; at the end she was meeting her mother's gaze without flinching. My eyes had followed hers, and my look was taking in both her mother and her father. I had long since measured them, yet I could scarcely credit the confirmation of my judgment. Had life been smooth and comfortable for that old couple, as it was for most of their acquaintances and friends, they would have lived and died regarding themselves, and regarded, as well-bred, kindly people, of the finest instincts and tastes. But calamity was putting to the test the system on which they had molded their apparently elegant, graceful lives. The storm had ripped off the attractive covering; the framework, the reality of that system, was revealed, naked and frightful. "Anita, go to your room!" almost screamed the old woman, her fury tearing away the last shreds of her cloak of manners. "Your daughter is of age, madam," said I. "She
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