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"But, I don't understand! I thought--I was sure--" "I know. But she doesn't! Not in that way. As a sister--" "That's enough! I--Accept my apology. I feel very sorry, Henry." Again that look of embarrassment and guilt upon the doctor's face. "No. Don't feel sorry! See here, let's be frank about the whole thing. It was a mistake, from the very beginning, a mistake. Miss Sinnet, Lorna, is a girl in a thousand. But--I did not care for her as a man should care for the woman he makes his wife. Nor did she care for me--wait, I'm not denying that there was a chance. We were very congenial. She might have cared if--if I had cared more greatly." "Henry Callandar! Are you a cad?" "No. Merely a man speaking the exact truth. I thought I might risk it, with you. Lorna Sinnet is not a woman to give her love and take a half-love in return. She was more clear-sighted than you or I. We should both have been very miserable." Elliott Willits sighed. He was a very sensible man. He prided himself upon being devoid of sentiment, but even the most sensible of men, entirely devoid of sentiment, do not like to see their well laid plans go wrong. "Well," he said, "I was mistaken. Let us say no more about it." Callandar's eyes softened, melted into misty grey. He laid his arm affectionately over the other's thin shoulders. "Only this," he said. "That no man ever had a better friend! I know you, old Button-Moulder. I know your ambition to make of me a 'shining button on the vest of the world!' You thought that Lorna might help. But I failed you there. I'm sorry. That was really the bitterness of the whole thing---to fail you!" "You owe me nothing," gruffly. "Only my life--my sanity." "I shall doubt the latter if you stay here." "No, you will see it triumphantly vindicated. I tell you I am better already. Look at my hand! Do you remember how it shook the last time I held it out for you. A few more months of this and it will be steady as a rock. Ah! it's good to be feeling fit again! And it isn't only a physical improvement." His smile faded and rising he began to pace the room. "I doubt if even you fully understand the mental depression that was dragging me down. No wonder Lorna would have none of me! Strange, that I cannot understand my own case as I understand the cases of others. Do what I would, I could not heal myself, the soul of the matter persistently escaped me. I was beginning to be as much the victim of an obse
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