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s were obtained, the immense properties of the Romani family, in default of existing kindred, would be handed over to the crown. There was much more to the same effect, and I read it with the utmost indifference. Why do they not search the Romani vault?--I thought gloomily--they would find some authentic information there! But I know the Neapolitans well; they are timorous and superstitious; they would as soon hug a pestilence as explore a charnel house. One thing gladdened me; it was the projected disposal of my fortune. The crown, the Kingdom of Italy, was surely as noble an heir as a man could have! I returned to my woodland hut with a strange peace on my soul. As I told you at first, I am a dead man--the world, with its busy life and aims, has naught to do with me. The tall trees, the birds, the whispering grasses are my friends and my companions--they, and they only, are sometimes the silent witnesses of the torturing fits of agony that every now and then overwhelm me with bitterness. For I suffer always. That is natural. Revenge is sweet!--but who shall paint the horrors of memory? My vengeance now recoils upon my own head. I do not complain of this--it is the law of compensation--it is just. I blame no one--save Her, the woman who wrought my wrong. Dead as she is I do not forgive her; I have tried to, but I cannot! Do men ever truly forgive the women who ruin their lives? I doubt it. As for me, I feel that the end is not yet--that when my soul is released from its earthly prison, I shall still be doomed in some drear dim way to pursue her treacherous flitting spirit over the black chasms of a hell darker than Dante's--she in the likeness of a wandering flame--I as her haunting shadow; she, flying before me in coward fear--I, hasting after her in relentless wrath--and this forever and ever! But I ask no pity--I need none. I punished the guilty, and in doing so suffered more than they--that is as it must always be. I have no regret and no remorse; only one thing troubles me--one little thing--a mere foolish fancy! It conies upon me in the night, when the large-faced moon looks at me from heaven. For the moon is grand in this climate; she is like a golden-robed empress of all the worlds as she sweeps in lustrous magnificence through the dense violet skies. I shut out her radiance as much as I can; I close the blind at the narrow window of my solitary forest cabin; and yet do what I will, one wide ray creeps in
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