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o think honestly. I don't desire to deny even to myself that I am now become what I am--a stranger to myself." He said, still with his forced smile; "What pretty and unknown stranger have you so suddenly discovered in yourself, Athalie?" She looked up at him, unsmiling: "A stranger to celibacy.... Why do you not take me, Clive?" "Do you understand what you are saying!" "Yes. And now I can understand anything _you_ may say or do ... I couldn't, yesterday." She turned her face away from him and folded her hands over the newel-post. And, not looking at him, she said: "Since we have been here alone together I have known a confidence and security I never dreamed of. Nothing now matters, nothing causes apprehension, nothing of fear remains--not even that ignorance of fear which the world calls innocence. "I am what I am; I am not afraid to be and live what I have become.... I am capable of love. Yesterday I was not. I have been fashioned to love, I think.... But there is only one man who can make me certain.... My trust and confidence are wholly his--as fearlessly as though he had become this day my husband.... "And if he will stay, here under this roof which is not mine unless it is his also--here in this house where, within the law or without it, nevertheless everything is his--then he enters into possession of what is his own. And I at last receive my birthright,--which is to serve where I am served, love where love is mine--with gratitude, and unafraid--" Her voice trembled, broke; she covered her face with her hands; and when he took her in his arms she leaned her forehead against his breast: --"Oh, Clive--I can't deny them!--How can I deny them?--The little flower-like faces, pleading to me for life!--And their tender arms--around my neck--there in the garden, Clive!--The winsome lips on mine, warm and heavenly sweet; and the voices calling, calling from the golden woodland, calling from meadow and upland, height and hollow!--And sometimes like far echoes of wind-blown laughter they call me--gay little voices, confident and sweet; and sometimes, winning and shy, they whisper close to my cheek--mother!--mother--" His arms fell from her and he stepped back, trembling. She lifted her pale tear-stained face. And, save for the painted Virgins of an ancient day he never before had seen such spiritual passion in any face--features where nothing sensuous had ever left an imprint; where the sensitive, tre
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