here."

She sat gazing at me, very still, but there came into her eyes a
frightened look that almost unnerved me. She seemed to wish to speak, to
be unable to. Passively, she let my hand rest on hers.

"I've been thinking a great deal during the last few months," I went on
unsteadily. "And I've changed a good many of my ideas--that is, I've got
new ones, about things I never thought of before. I want to say, first,
that I do not put forth any claim to come back into your life. I know
I have forfeited any claim. I've neglected you, and I've neglected the
children. Our marriage has been on a false basis from the start, and
I've been to blame for it. There is more to be said about the chances
for a successful marriage in these days, but I'm not going to dwell on
that now, or attempt to shoulder off my shortcomings on my bringing
up, on the civilization in which we have lived. You've tried to do your
share, and the failure hasn't been your fault. I want to tell you
first of all that I recognize your right to live your life from now on,
independently of me, if you so desire. You ought to have the children--"
I hesitated a moment. It was the hardest thing I had to say. "I've never
troubled myself about them, I've never taken on any responsibility in
regard to their bringing up."

"Hugh!" she cried.

"Wait--I've got more to tell you, that you ought to know. I shouldn't
be here to-day if Nancy Durrett had consented to--to get a divorce and
marry me. We had agreed to that when this accident happened to Ham, and
she went back to him. I have to tell you that I still love her--I can't
say how much, or define my feelings toward her now. I've given up all
idea of her. I don't think I'd marry her now, even if I had the chance,
and you should decide to live away from me. I don't know. I'm not so
sure of myself as I once was. The fact is, Maude, circumstances have
been too much for me. I've been beaten. And I'm not at all certain that
it wasn't a cowardly thing for me to come back to you at all."

I felt her hand trembling under mine, but I had not the courage to look
at her. I heard her call my name again a little cry, the very poignancy
of pity and distress. It almost unnerved me.

"I knew that you loved her, Hugh," she said. "It was only--only a little
while after you married me that I found it out. I guessed it--women do
guess such things--long before you realized it yourself. You ought to
have married her instead of me. You