gement, addressed
his companion thus:
"Why this coldness, Miss Mandeville? would that I dared to call you,
Eveline! You have ears for others, for me you have none; you have smiles
for others, but on me you never bestow a gladdening look; and yet, of all
the world, I most long for a smile, for the privilege to talk to you as a
friend."
"I hope I have always treated you with kindness; it has certainly been my
intention to do so."
"No, Miss Mandeville, not with _kindness_, pardon me, but it has only been
with cold civility. I am sure that if you only knew how my heart yearns for
a gentle and hopeful word from your adored lips, how it bleeds and recoils
within my bosom when your cold words pierce it as with an arrow, you would
certainly relent."
"The heart, Mr. Duffel, is not master of its own emotions; they come
unbidden often, and not unfrequently remain when we would gladly have them
depart."
"May I trust that in those words there is hope for me--that you would
really banish old memories and old prejudices, and receive me as my heart
continually pleads to be received?"
"I am not aware that any such changes as those of which you speak have
taken place in my mind or memory. I have no old and dear memories that I
wish to banish; and I believe my feelings toward you have not materially
changed."
"Oh, what crushing words! Surely your heart cannot be so hard as to drive
me away in despair, when my spirit is bleeding at the wounds your cruel
words have made."
"As I was saying, when you were so impetuous as to interrupt me, a few
moments ago, we cannot bid our feelings go and come as we would. The heart
will not love this one or that, at the dictates of cold, calculating
intellect, and the more it is urged to do so, the farther it is from
yielding, especially when harsh means or commands are used to bend it. If
you have permitted your feelings to rest upon me as you say they do, it is
your misfortune, not my fault; and because I cannot reciprocate your
feelings and wishes, you have no right to task me with cruelty or
hard-heartedness; and I hope you will not forget this in any future remarks
you may have to make on the subject."
"Pardon me, my dear Miss Mandeville, if, in the bitterness of my
disappointment, I have spoken harsh or unguarded words. When we are in deep
distress and anxiety we are apt to say and do things that we should not. It
was farthest from my design to wound your gentle heart, or say one
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