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she answered sweetly. She paused likewise, requiring nothing more; it was enough that he should speak her name. He changed his position and sat looking ahead. Presently he began again, choosing his words as a man might search among terrible weapons for the least deadly. "When I wrote and asked you to marry me, I said I should come to-night and receive your answer from your own lips. If your answer had been different, I should never have spoken to you of my past. It would not have been my duty. I should not have had the right. I repeat, Isabel, that until you had confessed your love for me, I should have had no right to speak to you about my past. But now there is something you ought to be told at once." She glanced up quickly with a rebuking smile. How could he wander so far from the happiness of moments too soon to end? What was his past to her? He went on more guardedly. "Ever since I have loved you, I have realized what I should have to tell you if you ever returned my love. Sometimes duty has seemed one thing, sometimes another. This is why I have waited so long--more than two years; the way was not clear. Isabel, it will never be clear. I believe now it is wrong to tell you; I believe It is wrong not to tell you. I have thought and thought--it is wrong either way. But the least wrong to you and to myself--that is what I have always tried to see, and as I understand my duty, now that you are willing to unite your life with mine, there is something you must know." He added the last words as though he had reached a difficult position and were announcing his purpose to hold it. But he paused gloomily again. She had scarcely heard him through wonderment that he could so change at such a moment. Her happiness began to falter and darken like departing sunbeams. She remained for a space uncertain of herself, knowing neither what was needed nor what was best; then she spoke with resolute deprecation: "Why discuss with me your past life? Have I not known you always?" These were not the words of girlhood. She spoke from the emotions of womanhood, beginning to-night in the plighting of her troth. "You have trusted me too much, Isabel." Repulsed a second time, she now fixed her large eyes upon him with surprise. The next moment she had crossed lightly once more the widening chasm. "Rowan," she said more gravely and with slight reproach, "I have not waited so long and then not kn
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