"Good; now turn my face to the Shutter. Be sure and exact. So. Do I face
it full?"
"Full," said Cary.
"Then I need no eyes wherewith to see what is before me," said he, with
a sad smile. "I know every stone and every headland, and every wave too,
I may say, far beyond aught that eye can reach. Now go, and leave me
alone with God and with the dead!"
They retired a little space and watched him. He never stirred for many
minutes; then leaned his elbows on his knees, and his head upon his
hands, and so was still again. He remained so long thus, that the pair
became anxious, and went towards him. He was asleep, and breathing quick
and heavily.
"He will take a fever," said Brimblecombe, "if he sleeps much longer
with his head down in the sunshine."
"We must wake him gently if we wake him at all." And Cary moved forward
to him.
As he did so, Amyas lifted his head, and turning it to right and left,
felt round him with his sightless eyes.
"You have been asleep, Amyas."
"Have I? I have not slept back my eyes, then. Take up this great useless
carcase of mine, and lead me home. I shall buy me a dog when I get to
Burrough, I think, and make him tow me in a string, eh? So! Give me your
hand. Now march!"
His guides heard with surprise this new cheerfulness.
"Thank God, sir, that your heart is so light already," said good Jack;
"it makes me feel quite upraised myself, like."
"I have reason to be cheerful, Sir John; I have left a heavy load behind
me. I have been wilful, and proud, and a blasphemer, and swollen with
cruelty and pride; and God has brought me low for it, and cut me off
from my evil delight. No more Spaniard-hunting for me now, my masters.
God will send no such fools as I upon His errands."
"You do not repent of fighting the Spaniards."
"Not I: but of hating even the worst of them. Listen to me, Will and
Jack. If that man wronged me, I wronged him likewise. I have been a
fiend when I thought myself the grandest of men, yea, a very avenging
angel out of heaven. But God has shown me my sin, and we have made up
our quarrel forever."
"Made it up?"
"Made it up, thank God. But I am weary. Set me down awhile, and I will
tell you how it befell."
Wondering, they set him down upon the heather, while the bees hummed
round them in the sun; and Amyas felt for a hand of each, and clasped it
in his own hand, and began:
"When you left me there upon the rock, lads, I looked away and out to
sea, to
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