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ispirited--I cannot pursue these questions," he broke off. "Tell me in a word: is there any cause for this?" "Yes." Percival gathered up his breath. "What is it?" "What is it!" her eyes ablaze with sudden light. "What has weighed _you_ down, not to the grave, for men are strong, but to terror, and shame, and sin? What secret is it, Lord Hartledon?" His lips were whitening. "But it--even allowing that I have a secret--need not weigh you down." "Not weigh me down!--to terror deeper than yours; to shame more abject? Suppose I know the secret?" "You cannot know it," he gasped. "It would have killed you." "And what _has_ it done? Look at me." "Oh, Maude!" he wailed, "what is it that you do, or do not know? How did you learn anything about it?" "I learnt it through my own folly. I am sorry for it now. My knowing it can make the fact neither better nor worse; and perhaps I might have been spared the knowledge to the end." "But what is it that you know?" he asked, rather wishing at the moment he was dead himself. "_All._" "It is impossible." "It is true." And he felt that it was true; here was the solution to the conduct which had puzzled him, puzzled the doctors, puzzled the household and the countess-dowager. "And how--and how?" he gasped. "When that stranger was here last, I heard what he said to you," she replied, avowing the fact without shame in the moment's terrible anguish. "I made the third at the interview." He looked at her in utter disbelief. "You refused to let me go down. I followed you, and stood at the little door of the library. It was open, and I--heard--every word." The last words were spoken with an hysterical sobbing. "Oh, Maude!" broke from the lips of Lord Hartledon. "You will reproach me for disobedience, of course; for meanness, perhaps; but I _knew_ there was some awful secret, and you would not tell me. I earned my punishment, if that will be any satisfaction to you; I have never since enjoyed an instant's peace, night or day." He hid his face in his pain. This was the moment he had dreaded for years; anything, so that it might be kept from her, he had prayed in his never-ceasing fear. "Forgive, forgive me! Oh, Maude, forgive me!" She did not respond; she did not attempt to soothe him; if ever looks expressed reproach and aversion, hers did then. "Have compassion upon me, Maude! I was more sinned against than sinning." "What compassion had you
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