t speak, Annetta!" (He, for some reason, preferred to
the common name of Verka the aristocratic Annetta, thought up by
himself.) "Don't speak. This is decided!"
"Oh, if only I could help you!" exclaimed Verka woefully. "Why, I'd
give my life away ... Every drop of blood! ..."
"What is life?" Dilectorsky shook his head with an actor's despondence.
"Farewell, Annetta! ... Farewell! ..."
The girl desperately began to shake her head:
"I don't want it! ... I don't want it! ... I don't want it! ... Take
me! ... I'll go with you too! ..."
Late in the evening Dilectorsky took a room in an expensive hotel. He
knew, that within a few hours, perhaps minutes, he and Verka would be
corpses; and for that reason, although he had in his pocket only eleven
kopecks, all in all, he gave orders sweepingly, like a habitual,
downright prodigal; he ordered sturgeon stew, double snipes, and
fruits; and, in addition to all this, coffee, liqueurs and two bottles
of frosted champagne. And he was in reality convinced that he would
shoot himself; but thought of it somehow affectedly, as though
admiring, a trifle from the side, his tragic role; and enjoying
beforehand the despair of his relatives and the amazement of his fellow
clerks. While Verka, when she had suddenly said that she would commit
suicide with her beloved, had been immediately strengthened in this
thought. And there was nothing fearful to Verka in this impending
death. "Well, now, is it better to croak just so, under a fence? But
here it's together with your dearie! At least a sweet death! ..." And
she frantically kissed her clerk, laughed, and with dishevelled, curly
hair, with sparkling eyes, was prettier than she had ever been.
The final triumphal moment arrived at last.
"You and I have both enjoyed ourselves, Annetta ... We have drained the
cup to the bottom and now, to use an expression of Pushkin's, must
shatter the goblet!" said Dilectorsky. "You do not repent, oh, my dear?
..."
"No, no! ..."
"Are you ready?"
"Yes!" whispered she and smiled.
"Then turn away to the wall and shut your eyes!"
"No, no, my dearest, I don't want it so! ... I don't want it! Come to
me! There, so! Nearer, nearer.. Give me your eyes, I will be gazing
into them. Give me your lips--I will be kissing you, while you... I am
not afraid! ... Be braver! ... Kiss me harder! ..."
He killed her; and when he looked upon the horrible deed of his hands,
he then suddenly felt a loathsom
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