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en on himself the burden of her life, and have come unscathed through the ordeal--calm himself, calm in his influence, a true doctor in the home; but Piers, by reason of those very qualities which endeared him to her woman's heart, was the last man on earth to support the strain. His fear, his anxiety, though expressed in tenderest devotion, must inevitably act and react on both. At this moment the great question appealed to her woman's heart less in its abstract than in the personal form, as affecting the happiness of the beloved. Whatever he might feel at this moment of stress and passion, it could not be for Piers Rendall's ultimate happiness to marry a woman over whom hung the deep cloud of inherited madness. His aim accomplished, joy would be speedily eclipsed in dread. In imagination she could see his haggard looks, feel the dark eyes brooding over her with fearful care. So far he had been free. If the chains fretted too sorely he had only to drop them, and go forth. How would he bear it if there were no escape? How could _she_ bear it for his sake? Vanna lifted her head and looked deep into her lover's eyes. Her voice was clear and steady: "No, Piers! I will never marry you. Never, to the end of time. But I will not bind you. You are quite free--" "Free!" He turned from her with a loud, harsh laugh. "Good God, how you quibble with words! I have loved you, I have given you my life--how can I be free? What have I left if you cast me off? What have _you_ left? How can you insult me with such words? How can you be so cold, so cruel? Women have no hearts. They don't know what it is to love--" The wild words flowed on in breathless torrent. Then suddenly came the collapse: he turned towards her, met the glance of her piteous eyes, and melted into remorse. "My poor Vanna, I am hurting you. Forgive me, darling! I am a brute, a selfish brute; I am half mad myself... Oh, this world! what a hell it can be! What have we done to be cursed and set aside? It is cruel--unjust. If we can never marry, why did we ever meet?" Vanna shivered. "_Why did we ever meet_?" Was it Piers who had spoken those words?--Piers, who had declared that to love her was a higher joy than to be the husband of any other woman! Once again the knell-like bell tolled in her ears. It was almost a relief when, after a few more incoherent words, Piers suddenly turned to depart. "I won't stay. I am hurting you. I
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