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t had not given Sir Nevil 'the surprise of his life,' it had given him the deepest, most abiding gratification he had known since his inner light had gone out, with the passing of her who had been his inspiration and his all. Dear though his children were to him, they had remained secondary, always. Roy came nearest--as his heir, and as the one in whom her spirit most clearly lived again. Since she went, he had longed for the boy; but remembering her plea on that summer day of decision--her mountain-top of philosophy, 'to take by leaving, to hold by letting go'--he had studiously refrained from pressing Roy's return. Now, at a word from Tara, he had sped home in the hot season; and--hard on the heels of a mysteriously broken engagement--had claimed her at sight. Yesterday their sense of strangeness had made silence feel uncomfortable. Now that they slipped back into the old intimacy, it felt companionable. Yet neither was thinking directly of the other. Each was thinking of the woman he loved. By chance their eyes encountered in a friendly smile, and Roy spoke. "Daddums--you've come alive! I believe you're _almost_ as happy over it--as I am?" "You're not far out. You see"--his eyes grew graver--"I'm feeling ... Mother's share, too. Did you ever realise...?" "Partly. Not all--till just now. Tara told me." There was a pause. Then Sir Nevil looked full at his son. "Roy--_I've_ got something to tell you--to show you ... if you can detach your mind for an hour----?" "Why, of course. _What_ is it--where?" He looked round the room. Instinctively, he knew it concerned his mother. "Not here. Upstairs--in her House of Gods." He saw Roy flinch. "If _I_ can bear it, old boy, you can. And there's a reason--you'll understand." The little room above the studio had been sacred to Lilamani ever since her home-coming as a bride of eighteen; sacred to her prayers and meditations; to the sandalwood casket that held her 'private god'; for the Indian wife has always one god chosen for special worship--not to be named to any one, even her husband. And although a Christian Lilamani had discontinued that form of devotion, the tiny blue image of the Baby-god, Krishna, had been a sacred treasure always, shown, on rare occasions only, to Roy. To enter that room was to enter her soul. And Roy, shrinking apart, felt himself unworthy--because of Rose. On the threshold there met him the faint scent of sandalwood that pervaded
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