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upon her heart She made a futile effort to lift it with words. "Frida," she said, "you are beautiful to--to hurt to-night Why has nobody ever painted a creature like you?" It was as if she touched an inner spring of the girl's nature, touched it electrically. Elfrida leaned forward consciously with shining eyes. "Truly am I, Janetta? Ah--to-night! Well, yes, perhaps to-night, I am. It is an effect of chiaroscuro. But what about always--what about generally, Janetta? I have such horrid doubts. If it weren't for my nose I should be satisfied--yes, I think I should be satisfied. But I _can't_ deceive myself about my nose, Janetta; it's thick!" "It isn't a particularly spiritually-minded nose," Janet laughed. "But console yourself, it's thoughtful." Elfrida put her elbows on her knees and framed her face with the palms of her hands. "If I am beautiful to-night you ought to love me. Do you love me, Janetta? Really _love_ me? Could you imagine," she went on, with a whimsical spoiled shake of her head, "any one else doing it?" Janet's fingers closed tightly on the arm of her chair. Was it coming already, then? "Yes," she said slowly, "I could imagine it well." "More than one?" Elfrida insisted prettily. "More than two or three? A dozen, perhaps?" "Quite a dozen," Janet smiled. "Is that to be the limit of your heartless proceedings?" "I don't know how soon one would grow tired of it. Maybe in three or four years. But for now--it is very amusing." "Playing with fire?" "Bah!" Elfrida returned, going back to her other mood. "I'm not inflammable. But-to that extent, if you like, I value what you and the poets are pleased to call love. It's part of the game; one might as well play it all. It's splendid to win--anything. It's a kind of success." "Oh, I know," she went on after an instant. "I have done it before--I shall do it again, often! It is worth doing--to sit within three feet of a human being who would give all he possesses just to touch your hand--and to tacitly dare him to do it." "Stop, Elfrida!" "Shan't stop, my dear. Not only to be able to check any such demonstration yourself, with a movement, a glance, a turn of your head, but without even a sign, to make your would-be adorer check it himself! And to feel as still and calm and superior to it all! Is that nothing to you?" "It's less than nothing. It's hideous!" "I consider it a compensation vested in the few for the wrongs of t
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