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a saw that he was shaking. It meant so much to him, then--? She unfolded the papers shrinkingly and read. As she read, the blood rushed to her checks for shame. She ought never to have doubted him. Never after the first look into his face, never after hearing him speak of the "cold, white flame" of an unforgotten winter night. Dickie's words, so greatly loved and groped for, so tirelessly pursued in the face of his world's scorn and injury, came to him, when they did come, on wings. In the four short poems, there was not a word outside of his inner experience, and yet she felt that those words had blown through him mysteriously on a wind--the wind that fans such flame-- "Oh, little song you sang to me A hundred, hundred days ago, Oh, little song whose melody Walks in my heart and stumbles so; I cannot bear the level nights, And all the days are over-long, And all the hours from dark to dark Turn to a little song--" "Like the beat of the falling rain, Until there seems no roof at all, And my heart is washed with pain--" "Why is a woman's throat a bird, White in the thicket of the years?--" Sheila suddenly thrust back the leaves at him, hid her face and fell to crying bitterly. Dickie let fall his poems; he hovered over her, utterly bewildered, utterly distressed. "Sheila--h-how could they possibly hurt you so? It was your song--your song--Are you angry with me--? I couldn't help it. It kept singing in me--It--it hurt." She thrust his hand away. "Don't be kind to me! Oh--I am ashamed! I've treated you _so_! And--and snubbed you. And--and condescended to you, Dickie. And shamed you. You--! And you can write such lines--and you are great--you will be very great--a poet! Dickie, why couldn't I see? Father would have seen. Don't touch me, please! I can't bear it. Oh, my dear, you must have been through such long, long misery--there in Millings, behind that desk--all stifled and cramped and shut in. And when I came, I might have helped you. I might have understood ... But I hurt you more." "Please don't, Sheila--it isn't true. Oh,--_damn_ my poems!" This made her laugh a little, and she got up and dried her eyes and sat before him like a humbled child. It was quite terrible for Dickie. His face was drawn with the discomfort of it. He moved about the room, miserable and restless. Sheila recovered herself and looked up at him with a sort of wan resolution. "And you will stay here and work the ranch
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