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nd so unseasonably in June, sheathed his ample chest. This waistcoat wasn't wrong merely because of the heat, either. It was somehow all wrong in itself. It wouldn't have done on Christmas morning. It would have struck a jarring note at the first night of 'Hernani.' I was trying to account for its wrongness when Soames suddenly and strangely broke silence. 'A hundred years hence!' he murmured, as in a trance. 'We shall not be here!' I briskly but fatuously added. 'We shall not be here. No,' he droned, 'but the Museum will still be just where it is. And the reading-room, just where it is. And people will be able to go and read there.' He inhaled sharply, and a spasm as of actual pain contorted his features. I wondered what train of thought poor Soames had been following. He did not enlighten me when he said, after a long pause, 'You think I haven't minded.' 'Minded what, Soames?' 'Neglect. Failure.' 'FAILURE?' I said heartily. 'Failure?' I repeated vaguely. 'Neglect--yes, perhaps; but that's quite another matter. Of course you haven't been--appreciated. But what then? Any artist who--who gives--' What I wanted to say was, 'Any artist who gives truly new and great things to the world has always to wait long for recognition'; but the flattery would not out: in the face of his misery, a misery so genuine and so unmasked, my lips would not say the words. And then--he said them for me. I flushed. 'That's what you were going to say, isn't it?' he asked. 'How did you know?' 'It's what you said to me three years ago, when "Fungoids" was published.' I flushed the more. I need not have done so at all, for 'It's the only important thing I ever heard you say,' he continued. 'And I've never forgotten it. It's a true thing. It's a horrible truth. But--d'you remember what I answered? I said "I don't care a sou for recognition." And you believed me. You've gone on believing I'm above that sort of thing. You're shallow. What should YOU know of the feelings of a man like me? You imagine that a great artist's faith in himself and in the verdict of posterity is enough to keep him happy.... You've never guessed at the bitterness and loneliness, the'--his voice broke; but presently he resumed, speaking with a force that I had never known in him. 'Posterity! What use is it to ME? A dead man doesn't know that people are visiting his grave--visiting his birthplace--putting up tablets to him--unveiling statues of him. A dead
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