lasting flames, and to get an interest in the Lord
Jesus: O what should she do for Christ! what should she do to be saved!
4. She gave herself much to attending upon the word preached, and still
continued very tender under it, greatly relishing what she heard.
5. She was very much in secret prayer, and was usually very importunate,
and full of tears.
6. She could scarcely speak of sin, or be spoken to, but her heart was
ready to melt.
7. She spent much time in reading the Scripture.
8. She was exceedingly dutiful to her parents, very loath to grieve them
in the least: and if she had at any time (which was very rare) offended
them, she would weep bitterly.
9. She abhorred lying, and allowed herself in no known sin.
10. When she was at school, she was eminent for her diligence,
teachableness, meekness, and modesty, speaking little, but when she did
speak, it was usually spiritual.
11. She continued in this course of religious duties for some years
together.
12. When she was about fourteen years old, she broke a vein in her
lungs, (as is supposed,) and often spat blood, yet did a little recover.
13. In the beginning of January, she was taken very bad again, in which
sickness she was in great distress of soul. When she was first taken,
she said, "O mother, pray for me, for Satan is so busy that I cannot
pray for myself; I see I am undone without Christ, and a pardon! O, I am
undone to all eternity!"
14. Her mother, knowing how serious she had been formerly, did a little
wonder that she should be in such agonies; and asked her what sin it was
that was so burdensome to her spirit? "O mother," said she, "it is not
any particular sin that sticks so close to my conscience, as the sin of
my nature: without the blood of Christ that will damn me."
15. Her mother asked her what she should pray for, for her? She
answered, "That I may have a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ; and that
I may have an assurance of God's love to my soul." Her mother asked her
why she spoke so little to the minister that came to her? She answered,
"It was her duty with patience and silence to learn of him."
16. One time when she fell into a fit, she cried out, "O I am going; I
am going: but what shall I do to be saved? Lord Jesus, I will lie at thy
feet; and if I perish, it shall be at the fountain of thy mercy."
17. She was much afraid of presumption, and dreaded a mistake in the
matters of her soul, and would be often putting
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