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ed them haggard and worn. Then it was the woman who spoke. "Ralph--do you think a woman can love--really love--two men?" He stared at her. "Perhaps," he faltered; "perhaps, but in different ways." "I loved them both. When--when I find John--if he wants me--if he asks me--I shall marry him." She shuddered. "Ruth!" "Yes; I think Philip would give him even--me. His renunciation was wide and deep. He, the great, strong soul of him, went on--alone. It had no real part with his weakness and all that was bound up in his weakness--he wanted John to have everything of which he had deprived him. You can understand, can you not? At the last, when fear had no further power, he was almost mad in his abandon of recompense. "He did not tell me this, that awful night when he told me--the rest; but I felt it. I saw that I, with all else that had meant anything to him, was included in his shame; and the new nature that had evolved from the agony and remorse--had nothing to do with us any more!" A deep sob shook the slim form. For a moment Ruth Dale rocked to and fro in her misery, then she let the wild confession again have its way. "For myself--" the haunted eyes fixed themselves upon Drew's rigid face--"for myself--in a strange fashion--and oh! you shall _not_ misunderstand me, I want to give to him that which I withheld from him when he needed it most. I want to bring back the gladness of life to him--if I can," she gasped; "it has all been such a hideous nightmare. If he wants me--if he wants me, he shall have me!" The words were flung out defiantly, fiercely. Drew started to his feet, and went quickly to her. In all his life he had never seen on a woman's face such desperation and remorse. As his friend's wife he had loved her as a sister. Her beauty had always fascinated and charmed him. To see her now, cast adrift on this troubled sea of love and fear, was a bitter, almost a terrifying sight. He bent over her, and raised her face firmly and gently with one trembling hand. He felt that he must calm and steady her by physical control. "Ruth," he said gently, but distinctly, "why do you look as you do? Tell me, what is in your heart?" The woman tried to shrink from the hold he had upon her. He saw that the vital point of her confession she would keep from him unless he commanded, and, if the future were to be saved from the grip of the miserable past, he and she must thoroughly understand each other.
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