d.
"I think Warren Luce has great power over me," said she, calmly, as if
coolly scanning her own feelings; "but you said right. He is not the one
whom--that"--
And here she smiled, as if at the thought of my broken-off sentences,
but without looking up.
"My dear girl," said I, earnestly, and taking a forward step,--"forgive
me, but--I think--I hope--you love David,--don't you?"
'Twas a bold question, and I knew it; but I was thinking how pleasant
'twould be to carry good tidings to my friend.
"I love his goodness," said she, just as calmly as before. "And I love
him for loving me. I wish he was happy. I hope no harm will come to him.
I would do everything for him,--but"--and here her voice fell--"_I don't
love him as Jane loved_."
"_Jane who_?" I asked, in surprise.
"Jane Eyre."
Here was a dilemma for me. What should I say next? What business had I,
meddling with a young girl's heart? I had been almost sure of finding
soundings, yet here I was in deep water! And, with all my pains, what
had I accomplished?
She arose, and moved towards the house. I walked along by her side,
without speaking.
"I'm going away to-morrow," said she, as we reached the gate, "to make a
visit at the old place; then everybody will be happier."
It was my turn then to be silent,--for I was trying to take in the idea
that there was to be no Mary Ellen in the house. She had occupied our
thoughts so long, had been so prominent an actor in our daily life,--how
we should miss her!
"Oh, no," I said, calmly,--for I had thought away all my surprise,--"we
shall all miss you very much."
And there we parted.
She left us the next morning, for a visit to her old home.
The latter part of the day I went into Emily's room. She had been
growing worse for some time, and had been removed to the westerly room
to be rid of the bleak winds. David was sitting on a low stool by her
bedside, his head resting upon the bed, looking up in her face. She
smiled as I entered.
"David is so tall," said she, "that I can't see his face away up there,
and so he brings it down for me to look at."
She held in her hand the ruby bracelet.
"David says," she continued, "that he is going to the gold-country, to
get money to pay off the mortgages,--and that, when he begins to get
gold, he shall get a heap, and will bring me home a whole necklace of
rubies, and make a beautiful home for me: _when_ he goes," she repeated,
with an unbelieving smile.
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